so far away

Never feared for anything.
Never shamed but never free.
A laugh that healed my broken heart with all that it could

Lived a life so endlessly.
Saw beyond what others see.
I tried to heal your broken heart with all that I could

Will you stay?
Or will you stay away forever?

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned.
Place and time always on my mind.
I have so much to say but you're so far away.

Plans of what our futures hold
Foolish lies of growin' old
It seems we're so invincible, the truth is so cold.

A final song, a last request
A perfect chapter laid to rest
Now and then I try to find a place in my mind

Where you can stay,
Or you can stay away forever.

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned.
Place and time always on my mind.
I have so much to say but you're so far away.

Sleep tight, I'm not afraid.
The ones that we love are here with me.
Lay away a place for me
'Cause as soon as I'm done, I'll be on my way
To live on eternally.

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
And the light you left remains but it's so hard to stay
When I had so much to say and you're so far away.

I love you
You were ready
The pain is strong and urges rise
But I'll see you
When He lets me
Your pain is gone, your hands untied.

So far away.

I need you to know

So far away
And I need you to,
Need you to know...

pum pum.

well, guess what.....i made a new friend tonight.
i called him pum pum. he's a very good listener. too bad he can't talk. owh, and he's a pumpkin head. :|

i got soo bored, that i came to the level of talking to in animate objects. i wanted Fake to keep me company, to be close to me. But too much has happened that it made being close to Fake and spending time with her seem impossible. I've gone a long way form the old me. true, i still get moody sometimes. But i can bounce back twice as fast as i used to. Fake had been in a lot of pressure lately, so this change of mine is really important. I will take the responsibility of keeping Fake happy with her life.

i was lonely, its fine :)
i got no one to talk to, its fine :)
i made friends with a pumpkin head so i could keep myself company, its fine :)

everything is fine now... im not easily hurt anymore....
this is a new me, more matured then ever. and my mission is to ensure Fake's happiness :)


so when you read this, Fake, please know that im fine.... i can take care of myself. :)

lots of love :)



i'm out. got tonnes of work to do.
PEACE!

conflict

Every now and then, we would encounter situations that can be classified as conflicts. conflicts are bound to happen in any human relations because, as the name suggested, we are only human. These unpleasant situations are triggered by the disagreement or differences between two parties. 

   "Sometimes these differences look trivial, but when a conflict triggers strong feelings, a deep personal need is at the core of the problem, such as a need to feel safe and secure, a need to feel respected and valued, or a need for greater closeness and intimacy. (http://www.helpguide.org/mental/eq8_conflict_resolution.htm)

Here are some ways to overcome conflicts.

1. Communication.

    Whenever a conflict arises, the first thing to establish is the communication. Talking. Try to find the root of the problem. Once the problem is identified, actions to solve the problem could be taken. on thing to remember in this stage is keeping your temper (talking from experience here). Try being as rational and emotionally uninfluenced. When emotions are involved, things might get difficult. keeping a level head is the key to a successful communication.

2. Toleration (give and take)

    In creating a good communication and relation, the parties involved must be considerate with one another. The parties need to be tolerant and try to understand the opposite parties. When we try to understand them, we would be able to figure out what is the source of the disagreement. Try and create a situation where both parties win. Either that, or try to work something out and reach an agreement.

3. Acceptance

   One way or another, we have to try and accept what the other party is going through. If the fault is ours, we must accept our wrongdoings and apologize. Clear things out with the other party. If it is their flaw, just accept them as it is.

4. Focus on the problem.

   The tendency to go off topic is very high. As a result, the conflict would lead to another, much bigger, conflict. Stay on the topic. Rather than trying to win the argument, focus on resolving the matter at hand.

5. Leave the past in the past.

   It is a bad habit to evoke a past. Let it be. Bringing up things never help to resolve the conflict and more often than not, it worsen the current conflict or even trigger another conflict. Just stay on the current issue. In order to create a peaceful resolutions, we must learn how to let things go.

6. Self control.

    Self control is very important in any argument or conflict. We must learn how and when to back down in each situation. If we pushed things too far, things would get tense and the situation would become very hard to resolve, fast. Whenever thins get too heated, take a step back and calm yourself before things go go out of control.

7. Avoidance

    Avoiding a conflict is usually a the way everyone choose. It is easy, and no complications. But BEWARE. Running away doesn't solve anything. 

Conflict can be distressing. True. But, if you think positive and see it as an opportunity, it can help you in various ways such as the process of growing up and being more mature.

i just got, as you can say, INSPIRATION to write in my ever so lonely blog.... :)

i was bored so i started to blog walking, as Fake usually do when i don't update my blog or when she's bored....
so it turns out, blog walking is kinda fun.....
sooo many people blogged about 'useful' stuff :)
just one regret though.....they have tonnes of followers.....
(and i'm like, WHY WON'T ANYONE EVER READ MY BLOG AND FOLLOW IT!!)
so sad........ :'(

i guess no one follows my blog coz i write only personal stuff.....
well, hell!
i'll write what i wanna write coz Fake loves it!!

here's a pic of her...enjoy~

but next time, i promise to write something worth reading~ :)





MiQatsum out! PEACE!

a dedication to Fake and Stoneface.

well, i can't say that i know what love is.....no one knows... only He knows what love really is...
the love that i know, heh, is not an ordinary one. :)

so, this post, i dedicate to myself and to my lovely Fake...the story of love....

love...the one that i know of, is full of surprise.....
i thought that in love, you should try your best to make your partner happy....
i thought that in love, you should never hurt  your partner's feeling....
i thought that in love, words are enough to show your love....
i thought that in love, actions can either hurt or heal....
i thought that in love, only happiness exist...that sadness isn't love....
i thought that in love, you must support each other the best you can....
i thought that in love, failure is the end....

the hell, that was my biggest mistake. THINK.

i just realized, thinking wont work.....
i've wasted so much time, thinking....
planning....
figuring out what i should do next....
i've done too much thinking, that i forgot to enjoy....
love isn't like that....
enjoy what you have, and have a goal for the future....
what happens in between, well, we'll have to figure it out as we go along..... :)

this is me, taking a step back and enjoying love...


peace!