Tuesday, October 22, 2013

The King and The Horse

Do you believe in change? A full 360 degree change? 
Well, i don't.
Change how much you want, but the old part of you will still be there.
Lingering about, waiting for the moment to take back the entity that makes you who you are.
So let me tell you a little story...

The King and the Horse.


There was once a King. 
He was powerful. He was invincible.
Words doesn't affect him, actions are nothing but futile attempts.
Nothing could hurt him, for he have no heart.
He treated the whole world as his enemy.
He cut his ties to the world, and that made him stronger.
He was alone, but he was happy all the same.
Of all the riches he has, there was one item that he treasured most.

His Horse.

His Horse was pure white. A blank slate of nothingness.
It was his friend, his only friend.
The King will never apart from his Horse.
Any way the King went, the Horse would follow.
Little by little, the King's personality, his essence was imprinted onto the Horse.

One fateful day, the King met the Enchantress. 
She was the most beautiful maiden in the land, and the King fell for her in an instant.
The King felt something in his hollow chest, something that he never felt before.
The Enchantress had opened the void, where his heart was suppose to be.
The King was confused for he had never experience such things.
The Enchantress brought the winds of change.
This wonderful change comes with a price.
The King had become vulnerable. The King was weak.
The King had to rely on the Horse for power. 
At first, the Horse didn't mind.
He was happy that the King need to use him again.

This went on for a while.
The King played around with the Enchantress and her schemes,
while the Horse was left alone.
Two summer went by and the Horse has a sudden realization.
'Why do I have to bow down to a powerless King?' the Horse thought.
The Horse became black as night itself.
Envy, Pride, Greed, Wrath had turned the pure white horse into jet black.

Thus, a fight over power ensued.
The Horse wants control over the entity that makes the Horse and the King whole.
Will the Horse overthrow the king? Or will the King reign supreme?
The battle never ends.


Random Ramblings

I'm not me.
I don't even know who i am anymore.
Its all because of you.
What's left of me?
An empty shell.
I am hollow. I am nothing.

Come inside. Step into my void of emptiness.


I AM LOST. 

Monday, July 22, 2013

CHAINS

so, here is an on the spot blogging.
there is this pent up stress in me.. mostly because of being confine to my current state.

Chains are made to bind us. it restricts us, it constricts us.
then yes... it is true that we are defined by what others think us to be.
too many things to consider, too many sides to protect..
then how i ask, that one can discover ones true identity?
how is that possible when there are all of these chains around our neck?
how is it possible to reach our highest potential when you are bind to your bones?
how can we be free?

in hindsight, there is never a freedom. its just a concept.
freedom doesn't really exist.
the society made that illusion to comfort the weak minds of the masses.
we will always be chained..
if not by the insignificant humans, it will be by the power of the Almighty Creator..

we were never destined for freedom.

Monday, July 1, 2013

Asking Alexandria - A Prophecy

How stubborn are the scars when they won't fade away?
Or just a gentle reminder that now are better days?

We'll be home soon, so dry your eyes,
You'll be okay (you'll be okay!)

Oh my God!
The water is rising!
It's rising!
You just have to believe in me!
Failing that I'll ride this storm alone!

We can still make it out,
'Fuck'

I can help you through this,
But you have to take my hand!
I can take you home,
Take my hand,
Take my hand!

I should've known the tides were getting higher.
We can still survive.
They think we're drowning but our heads are still above the waves,
Above the waves.

(I should've known the tides were getting higher)
(We can still survive)
(Above the waves)
(I should've known the tides were getting higher)
(I should've known the tides were getting higher)

We can still survive!

You never said goodbye, goodbye!
[x4]

And now you're on your own!

You never said goodbye!
You never said goodbye, goodbye!

a leader?

heh...if the me 2 years ago so me now, he would die of shock.
here i am, setting a meeting with a foreigner for the English Week, which for some unknown reason i volunteered to be spearheading, (hold your applause, this isn't something to be proud of)
being all official and shit...even i wouldn't believe that im actually doing this...
(p/s: im fucked)

2 years ago, i was just a nobody. a useless screw up. a kid without responsibilities.
now, hell.. im still a useless screw up but this time, i got people who are depending on me..
needles to say, this screw up just got a lot more heat on his ass...
to top that off, im barely hanging on a thread just as it is...

the stress would soon be unbearable but hey, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger...
but in not really sure that this wont kill me :|

coping with all this stuff without a reliable outlet my prove fatal, but im doing it anyway...
defiant to the end..hehe.

i guess with my emotional state right now, i can't really write a long post..but at least i am writing..

ja nee~