Random Ramblings

I'm not me.

I don't even know who i am anymore.

Its all because of you.

What's left of me?

An empty shell.

I am hollow. I am nothing.

Come inside. Step into my void of emptiness.

I AM LOST. 

CHAINS

so, here is an on the spot blogging.
there is this pent up stress in me.. mostly because of being confine to my current state.

Chains are made to bind us. it restricts us, it constricts us.
then yes... it is true that we are defined by what others think us to be.
too many things to consider, too many sides to protect..
then how i ask, that one can discover ones true identity?
how is that possible when there are all of these chains around our neck?
how is it possible to reach our highest potential when you are bind to your bones?
how can we be free?

in hindsight, there is never a freedom. its just a concept.
freedom doesn't really exist.
the society made that illusion to comfort the weak minds of the masses.
we will always be chained..
if not by the insignificant humans, it will be by the power of the Almighty Creator..

we were never destined for freedom.

Asking Alexandria - A Prophecy

How stubborn are the scars when they won't fade away?
Or just a gentle reminder that now are better days?

We'll be home soon, so dry your eyes,
You'll be okay (you'll be okay!)

Oh my God!
The water is rising!
It's rising!
You just have to believe in me!
Failing that I'll ride this storm alone!

We can still make it out,
'Fuck'

I can help you through this,
But you have to take my hand!
I can take you home,
Take my hand,
Take my hand!

I should've known the tides were getting higher.
We can still survive.
They think we're drowning but our heads are still above the waves,
Above the waves.

(I should've known the tides were getting higher)
(We can still survive)
(Above the waves)
(I should've known the tides were getting higher)
(I should've known the tides were getting higher)

We can still survive!

You never said goodbye, goodbye!
[x4]

And now you're on your own!

You never said goodbye!
You never said goodbye, goodbye!

a leader?

heh...if the me 2 years ago so me now, he would die of shock.

here i am, setting a meeting with a foreigner for the English Week, which for some unknown reason i volunteered to be spearheading, (hold your applause, this isn't something to be proud of)

being all official and shit...even i wouldn't believe that im actually doing this...

(p/s: im fucked)

2 years ago, i was just a nobody. a useless screw up. a kid without responsibilities.

now, hell.. im still a useless screw up but this time, i got people who are depending on me..

needles to say, this screw up just got a lot more heat on his ass...

to top that off, im barely hanging on a thread just as it is...

the stress would soon be unbearable but hey, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger...

but in not really sure that this wont kill me :|

coping with all this stuff without a reliable outlet my prove fatal, but im doing it anyway...

defiant to the end..hehe.

i guess with my emotional state right now, i can't really write a long post..but at least i am writing..

ja nee~

start a new

yo.. its been a while..
i happen to have ample amount of free time so i decided to rekindle my long forgotten blog.

so yeah... its the new semester...
time for things that are new...
i got a new phrase to hold by..its inspired by Stephen King's book / movie 'the dreamcatcher'

"Same Shit Different Day"

or SSDD for short. on the surface, it means that even if the settings or things change, the same problems or issues will still occur..
well, more about that later...

first i'm going to talk about the new kid in class..
well, he seems good. i don't really mind how he is. i just liked that there's another guy to befriend... hehe.

truthfully, i don't give a damn about someones past..
it's their past.. who they are now is all that matters to me... and there's the thing about first impressions and shit...
some people tries to hard to make a good first impression..
just be yourself...if people can't accept you  for who you are, then live on your own...
that's how i do it...at least, how i used to do it...
heh, things change, so what?

C'est la vie~

moving on!
on to the topic of unity.
well, recently, there was a commotion due to the soccer game.
winners starts to brag and undermining the other team..
yeah, true that there will always be winners and losers
but seriously? do you need to say awful things?

kutuk2 org yg klh wtpe? de faedah ke? siap ckp lg, kalu team yg dye x support tu menang, dye xnk dok msia da.. i was like, whatttttt.....
hang bodo ke pe?
hina sgt ea team yg kau x sokong tuh?
it's just a fuckin game, people!
kau bkn maen pown kt tgh pdg tuh...yg lagak kau lg over dr org yg penat2 kehulu kehilir doing their best to entertain you tuh nape?

see, nk semangat, semangat laa... cikit pown gua x kesah...tp xperlu la kn nk memperkacil kecilkan org laen..semangat kenegerian tuh mmg kene de, tp like my friend ckp laa...
"...semangat kenegerian meracuni gerakan persaudaraan tanpa sempadan yg ingin dibina oleh yg seakidah..."

gentle ckp, aku mmg x minat pe2 jenis sport... sbb2 la aku menghindarkan diri from involving myself from the so called '''gentleman's sport'''
alang2 da berbunyi kan, antara mende yg aku anti is mende camni la.. labeling... guys kene ske/fanatik ngan bola... tlg laa...
ok, cukup intermission..
sambung balik....aku kalu org ajak tgok bola, no hal... kalu org tnye aku akn ckp ak neutral...
pe2 lah...
aku x mengutuk org kalu org tuh xcarik pasal...
tolong laa....jgn la membodohkan diri sendiri....

'if you have nothing good to say, don't say anything'

that's what my father always taught me...
sorry for the rojak language...i tend to use rojak if i lost my composure...
again, let's start a new...

new mind set..
new way of thinking....
change for the better....

jaa ne~