Past Present Future

What up dear blob... yes. Blob.

My topic for today are the 3 states one would always have. The past, the present, the future.

My past? Well. It ain't all rainbows and sunshine. I've had my fair share of hell. And truth be told? I really despise my past. Currently. My past reminded me of how i was, how much I've changed. The things I've lost. Come to think of it, its pretty bleak most of the time. Childhood was pretty easy. I got a sister to look after me, keep me company. My teenage years are somewhat challenging... with the journey of self discovery and such. Getting an identity is harder on some. All in all, it was a entertaining, i guess.
But adulthood? Man, that shit is pretty messed up as far as i know. So far, my adult life started with the biggest mistake of my life (so far). Yeah, im prone to fuck things up eventually and my point was proven repeatedly. The depression, the acting-like-you're-ok-while-your-life-gets-screwed, the emptiness. So yeah. Adulthood rocks.

Anyway... the future on the other hand, is full of uncertainty. The impending burden, tell tale signs of of up coming fuck up, it'll leave you depressed if not even more depressed. Knowing what's to come, isn't helping to get things easier.

So, by process of elimination, the present should be the best you'll ever have. So live in it. Frankly, i just don't have the energy to give a fuck anymore. It's not that I don't care, sometimes i do, sometimes some things still irritates the fuck outta me, but I ain't got the energy to actually give a fuck

In the end, it boils down to just taking one fucking step at a time.

And just live.

See ya, ya bastards...