Review?

I just finished watching an anime movie called "Steins;Gate. Fuka Ryōiki no Dejavu" or "Steins;Gate the Movie: Loading Area of Déjà vu"

Keeping it short, its about a man that have developed means of time travel and tries to save the ones who are close to him. I'm gonna look for the anime series to better understand the story line and such.


But in the movie, the male protagonist, Okabe Rintaro had finally felt content that everyone close to him are alive and well. But his ability to feel the different timeline is taking its toll on him and causing him to cease to exist. In the reality timeline, no one would remember him and any records of him is erased completely. Its a complex and elaborate explanation but i'm not going there because that's not what THIS post is about.

I was intrigue at the concept of him vanishing from the face of reality and no one would acknowledge that he ever existed.


Imagine what it would be like..to be forgotten.

Imagine that someone you hold dear to you...but nobody remembers them.

Imagine how would you feel, when even you can't remember...but at the back of your mind, you know you need to remember...

Imagine the torture...of nothingness...

Imagine the despair... the feeling that you couldn't do a damn thing about it...


well, that's enough morbidity for one day...

till we meet again, ja nee~

Anger management issue

What the fuck?
Mmg keje ko nyusahkn org laen ea?
Sial sungguh perangai.
Serious. Aside from perangai PERASAN ko tuh, yg ko nk sibuk hal org laen tu npe?
Huh? Shit.
Ak asyik diam je slame ny. Bodoh tol celaka yg sesaje carik pasal. Pe masalah ko sebenarnye?
Ko sibuk hal orang knpe?
Fuck, ko konon tunjuk imej ko baik la? Padahal mcm sampah je
Value? heh. bleh wt gelak laa... Ko belit la sume ayat org lain.
Ko palit la sume salah kt orang lain.
Bkn stakat annoying, ny da tahap motherfucking annoying siot...
Celaka nyer anak haram.

And you wanna know the sad thing?
The haram jadah ckn tw pown...why?
Sbb ak kene jge ati sume org, kene jadik baik, kene diplomatik.
Screw you.

Sumpah ak benci ko.

Writer's Block

Yup. Writer's Block.
I'm having a hard time starting the friggin story...
I'm really pathetic...

Mornings Blues

Hey hoo...

Well, fuck.
I'm just acting cheerful :p
I'm actually really pissed off right now.
So many things fucking up my day
And to top things off, no one is gonna even try to understand
So fuck all this shit.

More on this later

Everyting i do is a joke

Sometimes, its just so friggin annoying. I will always be me.
I do stupid things for the things I care about.
I won't chnge that about myself.
If you can't friggin accept that, just leave me alone.
Whenever I have a problem, you always seem to hve a bigger problem.
That's enough. I'm done.

21 Blackjack

Last stand of Dead Men.

The 8th installment of the Skulduggery Pleasant series.

This is what want for my birthday...that's all....

No questions asked

Have you ever seen a drama/comedy series called How I Met Your Mother.
Its one of my favourite tv shows of all time...
I HIMYM, there's this one episode where they introduced a rule called 'no questions asked'...
Its where someone asked for a favour, well... no questions asked
Its the ultimate favour and must be repaid by another 'no questions asked'

I really like the concept....
its where you can avoid total embrassment and akwrdness...
I'm thinking of applying this rule in my daily life...
Well, I hope it becomes a thing....

Adieu

Depressing much?

Some of my post would be depressing from time to time....
Heck? That's just how I am.
I'm a sad, lonely, and depressing persona.
Once I was bright and cheerful...
Once...

But no more.
I'm just too tired to exert myself to be so peppy and bright.

People see me as sad...
I call it maturity.
No more room for me to beg for attention...
No more will I expose myself to be hurt again and again...

I am done.

This is me.

Silent

I'm the slient type.
Its well known.
I only speak when spoken to.
That's just how I'm wired...

So go ahead... fine someone else for u to talk to... I don't give a damn anymore...

I'll just be here.
Whenever u have problems or doubt.
Come find me. That's I'm here for right?
Use me whenever u want.

Empty

Bad start

Its early morning.. and I'm already confronted with unplesurable situation.

But, seeing that I hd resolve to being more professional this year, I'm doing my best to feel nothing...
Meh, it might last....or it might not...
We'll just have to wait and see...

Come hail come shine...
I don't give a shit what I feel anymore.
Hell, no one cares.

In the shadow.....

I hate the feeling of being in some one elses shadow....
In this case, the shadow of my parents....
I can't seem to escape it....
Almost everywhere I go, people would relate me to my parents.....
Not to blow my own horn.. but my parents are really good teachers....
I mean, really good...
In they hayday, they would make their name known through courses, seminars and such....
It would be an honor to be even the slightest bit like them....

But wht about me?
When will I be recognize as my own self?
Whenever people know I'm my parent's son, they would reflect everything I do to them...
If I did somthing awesome, his their son....

In their shdow.....
Untill I break free of this shadow, I will finally be ME...

A long lost dream...

I think I've mentioned it before...
I really love to read novels...
And with that love, comes a determintion....
I would very much like to make my own novel....

Here I am.....years after that dream etched inself into my brain...
And what do I have to show for it?
Nothing.....
Absolutely nothing.....
Its not like I didn't try, mind you..
I did.... I honestly did....
But somehow, I failed at every attempt....
I had made my dream smaller by trying to make a short story....
Still..... I failed....
I tried to change the ganre or the story and yet....I still failed....

I'm not really sure that this dream would become a reality...
But for me to give up?
Hell no! I'm gonna do this thing.... even if takes me a whole lifetime...
I am gonna publish a book!

That's my new years resolution!

Temper temper disaster....

Go ahead..
Test my patience..
See how far that would get you
Test how far I'm willing to put my head down, enduring all the shit that is thrown at me.

Go on....
Test my good will
Turn that to a sense of obligation
How I take everything and not say a word.

Please...
Test my sincerity...

Regret?
It was long since I used that word.
It might be resurfacing again.

2014~

Heyyo! Tis the new year....
A new start.. a new resolution...
I plan to do a lot of things inthe new year...
To read more...
To understand more....
To work out more...
And the list would go on...

Well, planning is a lot easier than actually doing...
The first day of the classes and already one of my resolve was tested..
I'm starting to doubt my ability to fullfil my resolves for this year..
I just know that this year would be another shitty year...
Meh, cest la vid....

While the chatter of how each and every one spend their holiday and how everyone did on their exams goes all around me, I realized something.....

I'm different.

That's not really a good thing....
I don't have any stories to share cause...well...I don't have any...
My holiday was as boring as boring could be...

I didn't go to some fancy theampark...
I didn't suffer from the flood...
I didn't see any good movies....
.....well......thts not the whole truth....
I saw some pretty awesome movies...but no one to share with... I would really enjoy going to the cinema once in a while...but in my current economic condition, well... let's just say tht I can barely buy food...

I'm getting side tracked here....

The point is.... I don't have anything good to share...
I like to talk... but I'm not that good at conversations....

My battry is running out..
Till next time...
Ja nee....