.....i ain't sleeping tonight

soooo.....yeah.......
i was 9gag-ing...ignoring every single homework i have just coz im too freaking bored.....
again, i was browsing through 9gag and came across a very interesting article....
its about a painter...so i did a little bit more research and here is what i found....


his name is Zdzislaw Beksinski. he was born in the town of Sanok, in southern Poland. his childhood was spent during the Second World War. in 1955 he spent several years as a construction site supervisor, which he hated. At that time, he became interested in artistic photography and photomontage, sculpture and painting. but wait, there's more....

those stuff is just the regular stuff...what makes this particular painter stand out is his tragedies in his life....
first and foremost, his wife, Zofia, died in 1998 due to some kind of plague and a year later, on Christmas Eve 1999, his son Tomasz committed suicide. Beksiński discovered his son's body. On 21 February 2005, Beksiński was found dead in his flat in Warsaw with 17 stab wounds on his body; two of the wounds were determined to have been fatal....what's more, none of his art was ever titled and considered cursed.....

here are some sample of his artwork....

for more of his works, go search for them yourselves!

haha! im out~

and the 9gag continues.......

always - bon jovi

This romeo is bleeding
But you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up

It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up

I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me

And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always

Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I've made mistakes, I'm just a man

When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you've been needing to hear
I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mine
To say to you till the end of time

Yeah, I will love you baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always

If you told me to cry for you
I could
If you told me to die for you
I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you

Well, there ain't no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We'll find a place where the sun still shines

And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always

"Heaven Can Wait"

Here's a song for the nights 
I think too much and 
Here's a song when I imagine us together 
Here's a song for when we talk too much 
And I forget my words 

Heaven can wait up high in the sky 
It's you and I 
Heaven can wait deep down in your eyes 
I'm yours tonight 
Lay your heart next to mine 
I feel so alive 
Tell me you want me to stay, forever 
'Cause heaven can wait 

Here's a song for the one who stole my heart 
And ran so far that cupid couldn't catch her 
Here's a song for the kid who aims so high 
He shot her down 

Heaven can wait up high in the sky 
It's you and I 
Heaven can wait deep down in your eyes 
I'm yours tonight 
Lay your heart next to mine 
I feel so alive 
Tell me you want me to stay forever 
'Cause heaven can wait 

Here's a song for the nights I drink too much 
And spill my words 

Heaven can wait up high in the sky 
It's you and I 
Heaven can wait deep down in your eyes 
I'm yours tonight 
Lay your heart next to mine 
I feel so alive 
Tell me you want me to stay forever 
'Cause heaven can wait 

'Cause heaven can wait 
'Cause heaven can wait

A day of nothingness~

well hello dear readers....how have you been....
even though i know for a fact that at most 2, or if i'm lucky maybe 3, people that read my post, i'm going to pretend like i have a thousand readers eager for me to update my blog from time to time.

so, today, i'm going to talk about the recent events that is happening in my life. After accepting an advice from a certain someone, i am writing things purely as sugar coated as possible.


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on second thoughts, i can't do this without being personal... so, sorry to waste your time dear readers. I'm going to have to keep this one to myself. By the way, to any of the o so many readers who aren't on facebook, it was my birthday a few days ago (18th January) so, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME~ tralalalalala~

Maybe i'll tell about the story of how the week leading to my birthday went :)





but not today~
see ya!

swear and curse

*Due to the fact that this blog is for public viewing, the contents of this post has been edited as to not offend the delicate mind hearts of the society.

Being matured is quite hard. Some things are challenging that the mind and emotions are pushed to the limit. The quest for improvement are somewhat not for the weak of heart. Things that will cause the heart to burst are coming one after another, a relentless attack to destroy and deteriorate confidence and happiness. The best thing to do under the circumstances is to keep calm and move along. Become as hard as you  can so these new matured atmosphere will not cave you in. Justice is an important part of maturity. Even if you are stuck in an unjust situation, one must keep calm and try to be as passive as possible. Emotions will be a hindrance if you let them control you. Letting things go is a must. Always keep in mind that throwing a fit is no longer an option. This time around, one must take in all the pain and keep it that way. Even if it hurts, just keep calm and move along.

the bottom line, life is hard.
and it gets harder everyday.
the only way to survive, is to become as bulletproof as u can..
the rest, well....

my dilemma

i HATE humans!

they are so....urghhhh...
i get so irritated by them...in normal circumstances, i am a very tolerable person... i have a pretty high level of patience..but when it comes to those human beings, especially in large numbers, i get so freakin' irritated!
there's no explanation, it just is...i'm really uncomfortable when put into a situation where the whole place is jammed packed with those creatures...usually i avoid those situations by hanging back, staying solitary.... but sometimes it doesn't work. i hate the noise. and the atmosphere. these things are the reason i get so freaking annoyed around a group of humans. humans are somewhat a relentless creatures. they would never be different if they don't wish it.

humans have the need for company. is written in their genetics. they are creatures that can't thrive on their own. they need support, they need followers, they need MORE humans. thus, creates the atmosphere of too many humans, irritating the hell out of me. somehow, im a bit different from those humans. i can be by my self. i prefer solitude. i don't know either it is a defect in my genetic that contributes to the personality or just a god given thing. all i can do is accept the fact that im a bit different for all the masses of human beings who surround themselves with more humans.

i've accepted it and moved on..

am i a writer?

so, yeah....i'm in the process of writing a book. It started out as a crazy idea during the holidays. So far, i've already reached.....wait for it.....the 2nd page.....

So what?! I'm not a professional writer! I'm not ashamed to admit that im a complete amateur. I dont even know what im doing! what do you expect? The idea came when i was reading a really good novel by my favorite author, Derek Landy. He's the one who wrote the badass Skuldugerry Pleasent series. More about that later.

So there i was, reading a very good book, and watching a 1987 zombie movie. Then, a thought crossed my mind. Why don't i try and write a zombie novel? What could go wrong? All you have to do is write, right? So the novel started. and now, i'm finding less and less time to continue my novel because my hours are jammed packed with studies and what not. (truth be told, i mostly spend my days sleeping more than studying)

then a thought crossed my mind.....
if i have the time to write my blog, might as well resume my novel.... :|

humans...huh.

Humans are an annoyance to the world. They are ungrateful, irresponsible, imbecilic, creatures that are eluded by their own pride. These so called perfect creature are nothing more than a speck of dust in a wider scale. They think they are the center of the universe, the key of the existence of every little thing in the cosmos. Pitiful creatures actually. They believe that without them, the world would mean nothing. They believe their own lie. The perfect creatures? I beg to differ. Best creatures ever created, acceptable, but to lift it to the point of perfection, that's just human nature. Its like pride was wired directly into the genetic code of all humans alike. Proud beings, too proud until they forget their roots. And to make things worse, humans have no trust for each other. They betray their own kin whenever they like. These humans would be the end for all of us. The so called perfect creations...they will be the destroyers of this world.

elvis~

Love me tender,
Love me sweet,
Never let me go.
You have made my life complete,
And I love you so.

Love me tender,
Love me true,
All my dreams fulfilled.
For my darlin I love you,
And I always will.

Love me tender,
Love me long,
Take me to your heart.
For it's there that I belong,
And well never part.

Love me tender,
Love me dear,
Tell me you are mine.
Ill be yours through all the years,
Till the end of time.

(when at last my dreams come true
Darling this I know
Happiness will follow you
Everywhere you go).

happy birthday

hey everyone :) my birthday is just around the corner and here's a few words of wisdom....

Here is a time where childhood is a thing in the past. Where responsibilities hung around your neck like a noose, slowly, tightening around your throat. Suffocating the life out of you. Where naive ideas are shot down without a single explanation. Bam, bam, bam. You crash and burn. Where you are kicked around when you are already down and bleeding. Mercy is only a word. Sympathy is only a concept. A place where lies and deceit are the currency and truth are a myth. Lies are explained by more lies. Conflicts are a norm and peaceful resolution is only an idea. Where two face is a must have skill. Never show who you really are. It would only be your downfall. People would be lining up to have a chance to stab your back, and see who succeeds in bringing you down on your knees. People would give u a hand only to let you down again. This vicious cycle would turn and turn again, never stopping. Trust no one. That's how you survive. That's the only objective of this game, to simply survive. Strive each day to stand on your own two feet, for there is no one to depend on. Everyone is your enemy.

well, guess what....

WELCOME TO THE ADULT LIFE