Today, i went on a lil outing with the whole family, you know, actually going out and going to places with a lot of people. Its been a while since i had to meet people.
At first, it was fine. It was actually kinda fun. Looking at people, silently judging them from afar. But at one point, I felt lonely. I mean, really lonely. Reason? The number of couples are too damn high. Yeah, I'll admit it. I never did recover. Im still broken. But today, the loneliness was unbearable. I was depressed even. I tried my best to conceal it. But my big sis picked up on my mood. After denying i had problems and changed the topic, i forced myself to be the cheerful and childish idiot that everybody sees.
It was hard, but i manage to pull it off somehow. I'm still able to push down every single emotion i have. Somehow, im still able to function.
Somehow....
But honestly, i don't think i can do this anymore...
