Payback.

Have you ever heard of the phrase life's a bitch or payback's a bitch? Basically, everything's a bitch.

My point of today is focusing on payback. The chances of payback sometimes presents itself, all juicy and plump, ready for the picking.

But sometimes, you gotta be bigger than that and hold it in. To let the opportunity slide is something very hard to do, to me personally.
I had to muster a lot of self control to let this sweet, sweet opportunity for revenge past buy. The voices in my head are screaming and cursing me for what i did, or to be exact of what i did not do.

But hey. Im over petty vengeance. I will keep my head held high.

Hey, don't get the wrong idea. You're gonna get what's coming to you. But the question is when and how. I ain't no saint.

Ja nee...

Never forget

I've forgotten how it felt,
to have you by my side

I've forgotten how it was,
to have a goal, a purpose

I've forgotten what it's like,
to be whole and complete

I've forgotten where i was,
where i am, where i should be

I've forgotten a lot of things, to say the least
but i'll never forget the ones who leaves.

-miqatsum

(12/10/2015)

What up mofos...

as the title states..... what up...
it's been a hell of a time since i last written here
loads of stuff had happened
honestly, A LOT.

so being the dedicated blogger that i am (fuck, who the hell reads my blogs anyway), i think im gonna start writing again...
short accounts of my daily life, NoI thoughts, some pictures if i feel like it...
this will be my outlet..
i think.

well fuck it... im at the point where i don't give a damn anymore.
in light of recent events, one might think that i would delete this blog due to the various history of this...thing.
well guess what.

IM STILL A STUBBORN M*****F*****.

nothing is going to be deleted.


muahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.....

ehem, where was i?
 oh yeah. blogger.
from time to time im not gonna be able to write s**t
so................

to anyone reading this, don't.

see ya some other time dear blog.

saraba.

Time

There will be a time,

when I would be able to sincerely smile

the light sparkling in my eyes again.

There will be a time,

when I would be able to laugh

joyous and unrestraint

There will be a time,

when people ask me if I’m fine

I can answer without lying

There will be a time,

when I would be able to ignore

the emptiness, the gaping void

There will be a time,

when I can be alone

without feeling the clinging loneliness

There will be a time,

when I can enjoy the warm sun

melting the frigid darkness

There will be a time,

when I could go a day

without thinking of what could have been

There will be a time,

when I will be able to look you in the eyes

and do not see the memories

do not feel resentment.

There will be the time…

- Miqatsum