the truth behind the MASK

a mask...
it hides many things....
things that others wont know...
things that you keep for yourself....
no one would be able to see the true expression...
no one would be able to guess whats happening behind the mask

a mask....
to be able to hide behind that mask...
fearing of what the others might find...
fearing of your own weaknesses...
fearing of the things that would bring you down...
the things that are so fragile even the slightest touch could break in into pieces...

a mask...
some use it as a shield...
to protect the things inside them which are important, from being taken away from them....
some use it as a restraint, as to keep themselves from hurting those around them...

a mask...a thousand uses....
i am learning the arts of the mask....
learning to use it when the situation needed...
learning to depend on it....



everyone wears a mask....
and no one knows whats behind them....

story of boredom 2

well, i've got nothing to say so i wont say anything...
seriously, i don't have anything to say...
























































































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there's noting to say! im not going to say anything.....
honestly!



























































































































































dont waste your time here......
there are more useful things to waste your time on.....































































































































































































you really like to waste time huh?



































































































































































it's really hard to understand people like you you know....






















































































































































































































































why are you so stubborn?
it's your hobby isn't it? i thought so...























































































































































































































































anyway, thanx for wasting time :)

KAWAN

lam dunia ny, org bese ckp, de dua jenis kwn....
kwn nanges, and kwn ketawa....
tu yg ak blaja laa.....time kecik2 dulu (time innocent)

tp makin ak besar, makin jumpe mcm2 jenis kwn....
cth, kwn yang ske tikam blakang.
yg ny agak bahaya laa....
spesis ny baik tw.... skali tgok, fuh! leh wt best friend wooo....
cm leh simpan secret....
cm leh thrust....
cm leh depend....

but in the end. spesis ny la yang paling banyak wt kucar hidup...

HUH!
kau harap dye support kau, tp in reality, they are the ones to bring you down...
they will be there not to pick you up when they see you down...
yeah, they will be there, but only to laugh at you...

crash and burn~

jenis kwn cmny siyes wt nyemak kt friend list kau....
mmg tol, kwn sume org and jgn wt musuh...
xsuh wt musuh pown....
kalu leh elak, elak....
just stop being too influenced with them....
don't let what they say effect you...
dont give a damn what they think about you....

ny nk cite sikit...
kalu btol name tu kwn,
xde nyer wt cmtu....
they will help you....not bring you down...
they will accept you for who you are....

they will try and understand you....
kalu diorang x phm, at least diorang akn wt effort nk understand korang....
thats my opinion laa....
xtw la trend skang ke ape kn...
ak old school cikit....
x reti sgt sal trend2 yg bru ny....

ade plak sestengah maknusia yg ckp diorg tuh kwn,
dye ny jenis yg spt sgt menilai tw....
spesis ny pown slalu wt ati tu mcm kene robek2 je....
huh.....
bile kite okeyh, okeyh laa.....
tp bile stu je silap, fuh!
berduyun2 spekulasi yg timbul......
cam siot je....serius....

judgmental much?!

giler laa.....xphm ak ngan maknusia2 camni.....
it makes me wonder actually.....
ke mmg purpose idop diorg tuh nk tunggu org wt silap so that they can hambur mcm2 jenis tuduhan....
hmmmm....kebarangkalian yg besar......
mmg nyusahkn idop..... ade je mende yg x kene....
perlu ke bkk mulot kalu someone tuh mess up even cikit je?
x smpt pe2 da tembak mcm firing squad jlnkn hukuman bunuh kt convicts zmn2 dlu....

heh....zmn dulu....
making friends, keeping friends....
the simpler times......

next, kite akn jumpe jenis kwn yg x kenang budi...
kwn2 camni, lg nykitkn ati.....
penat wooo...membanting tulang (xtw la tol x tatabahasa ak ny) wt something..
then, satu thanx pown xdpt?!
wht the.....then leh plak nk minx more??
pekejadahnyer.....
kalu tolong member tu xpe gak.....ny ka dok tepi peluk tubuh, then ka leh plak bukak2 mulot
bising2 komplen mcm2.....
hohohoho....ati mane x tebakar kn.....
org da elok2 tolong, da elok2 kasi 110% effort.....
pastu, nk bunyik gak? ye....yg terase tu, ye la tu.....
come on laa....kwn mmg snang nk carik.... tp ssh sgt ke nk appreciate kwn tuh??
susah?
ak bet lg snang la dr ka pk nk wt komplot pe plak pasni, nk sebar cite pe plak pasny....
seriously?

xphm tol laa......

kawan.....
bkn musuh.....
tp kalu yg name kwn tuh lg teruk dr musuh....
i dont know what to say laa....

heh, sape la sgt ak ny kn, nk bunyik2 kt sini....
tp pedulik pe ak? blog ak, suke ak laa!
WAHAHAHAHAHA!

so a few words sblom ak logout nk face dunia reality blek....

bile bekwn tuh, pndai2 la jage kwn.....
tp kalu kwn tuh da serupe cam musuh n stat pijak2 pale,

its time for REVENGE bebeh!!!!


wahahahahhaha...... (evil laugh)


thats all for now, thanx for reading :)
wasalam......

p.e.r.a.s.a.n. part 2

ok, so kal ini ak tunai janji, and cakap sal bab p.e.r.a.s.a.n. ny....

PART 2
hai si perasan sekalian....
kalu org ckp sal something tu, leh x jgn pk org tu tgh ckp sal kau?
yg kau tetibe nk rase kau la subjek/objek yg sdang dicakapkn tu nape?

heh, dunia x putar keliling kau tw x....
perasan penting tol laa....
huh, menyampah ak.....

kau perasn yg org treat kau cm kau tu besa sgt, and sbb tu, kau rase terdorong nk becite yang membesakn lg diri kau tu utk dpt attention....
mmg kurang kasih syg ea spesis kau ny?
tolong laa....mende ny dipanggil riak tw x? penah dgr?
laa....de blaja kn time skolah dlu.....
gi skolah x?
kau blagak n riak dgn pe yg kau ade, n kau expect sume org suke kau la?
bajet tol~ 

 huh.....tension tol ngan spesis perasan ny.....




*sorry sgt2..... tgh blogwalking blog sniri n bru prasan x publish lg mende ny.... 
hehehehe.... gomen!    >___<

Dark days

these past few days, the sun haven't been shining....
too many storms...
too many rain...
too much coldness....

i missed the warmness....
i missed the joy that the sun brings...
i missed the sun rays that would cheer me up at any given time.....
i missed all of it....

true, that after the dark clouds has passed, there will be a rainbow....
there is no doubt about that.... but a question still remains.....
how long will this dark days continue?
can i survive the coldness?
can i survive without the sun?

can i just simply survive?

the question remains.......

broken smile

how can a smile be broken?
what does a broken smile looks like?
a broken heart can heal, does a broken smile do the same?
what are broken smiles?

so much questions.....so little answers...
a broken smile...
some say it's one of the saddest thing to see....

smiling in the midst of sadness....
smiling when you are hurt....
smiling when your heart is not in it.....

sweetheart, no more broken smiles....
it's painful to see.....


i love you

appreciation

when someone does something for you, you should appreciate them...
show them that what they did means something to you....
the simplest form of appreciation is by saying 'thank you'...as simple as it is, i would mean a lot to someone...
if someone is happy, does it mean they don't need to be thanked?
if someone says that they don't WANT any appreciation, does it mean that they don't NEED them?
you would be surprised how the simple act of appreciating someone could effect the person....

when someone did something and it looks calm doing it, it doesn't mean that they didn't put their effort in doing the things that must be done...when a person knows that they are being appreciated, it would boost their spirit and enthusiasm in doing their work....who knows, they might be under a lot of pressure, and all that they need was to feel appreciated... who knows, that just a simple thank you or any other acts of appreciation may save someone from giving up completely.... when it comes to dealing with humans, you'll never know what might happen.... the greatest creation on the face of the planet is also the most unpredictable....so, appreciate what others did whenever you get the chance.... just put yourself in their shoes....don't you want to be appreciated as well?


when the world is being unfair to us, when everything is not going our way....
rather than sitting there feeling defeated, we have to appreciate all the things that happened to us....be it bad or good.... we must be thankful that we are given the chance to learn the values of patience, strength, and everything else in between... appreciate the chances that is given to us....if it involves humans, if they treat us like we don't deserve any appreciation, let it be... we became stronger because of it....

calmness

as i walked across the bridge, i looked around me.... no one...not a single soul in sight....but yet, i didn't feel lonely....i felt a sense of calmness....no one to make noises, making everything hectic....just me alone, in the middle of the bridge...thousand problems are playing on my mind but for that brief moment, i felt calm.... i felt at ease... for that brief moment, the world seems to agree with me...such peacefulness is rare, so rare nowadays... with all these hectic situations going on, i cling on that brief peacefulness so desperately....

peacefulness in the midst of chaos.....

between insanity and happiness

                There’s a fine line the both of them. Is being insane makes the person happy? Or is it the other way around? Happiness leads to insanity? Let’s take a few moments to ponder this matter.

Insanity.

                Being able to free your mind from all those burdening world problem. Being able to live in a world of your own, without even the slightest care at all. Being carefree. Laughing when you feel like it, crying when you feel like it. Be angry, have fun. To be you… but yet, the society scorn on the people who are considered insane. Ironically, the society itself dubbed these people who are different than them as insane. If this is what is called insanity, something the whole world should shun, than I would rather choose insanity. To be tied to what people say, what people think of you, that's not a way of life. that's not how i would want to live. i would rather be hated, isolated... to be free and doing things i want with the person i loved most. how heavenly that could be.. how happy i would feel. the world is plotting something against me. it's just a classic case of me against the world. if the people wants to say things, say it....i dont care....

hate me..
leave me..
cut me down...
like hell, i'm still me...
haters gonna hate....

i already got everything i need....
i got someone who loves me for who i am....
that's all i need....everything else i can live without.

i will be there when the burns down to the ground...when that time comes, i will be standing tall, laughing at all them haters...


i am insane.